First day..

...Of my summer vacation!!wohhooo!!!

"breeding are for dogs, maybe you mean etiquette!"

this quotation was supposed to be discussed in my earlier entries but it was only now that I was able to recall my assertion about it..

when I heard the term breeding used for a person from one of my professors I couldn't deny the feeling of shame because of the injustice of his thought. Breeding are only for dogs, that's already a given fact. Was there an instance when the classifications of human beings are called 'breedings' instead of race? I can't recall any, cause if someone would dare use that term he should without any second thought be executed! not exaggerating but its true, yeah humans are animals but we're higher than them.. we have the capacity to rationalize.

But how do you rationalize that usage of the term breeding? First let's trace the alleged meaning of the term 'breeding' as used for humans. That breeding means the values, rituals or habits of a person. You would often hear some exclaim to an undisciplined woman on the table say:

"ano ba yan, wala man lang siyang breeding!"

But how does this term really came to the Philippine context? In my belief it begun during the era when we're under the supremacy of abusive colonizers who mistreated us by all means they could from beating up to death to the merciless deprivation of food.

Since those horrendous acts are rampant forms of torture to our recalcitrant ancestors, a major factor to that treatment was caused by the fact that despite being atrocious in subjugating our ancestors they're still qualified to be gratified for their substantial role in enriching the primitive Filipino culture. Nevertheless regardless of this evident impact and possibly a few agreeable motives enacted unlawfully our ancestors inclined to refute them.

This act of being ingratitude was dependably exhibited by dogs whom their masters nourish and minister to reduce to a point wherein their natural unruliness disclose which leads to betrayal in form of biting off their masters notwithstanding every single nurturing they accepted from them.

I personally deduce that because such disloyalty of our ancestors thus the reason why we’re associated to the term breeding which is technically used only for animals.

However irrespective of what perception one resolves to, no one should dare contest that using such term is inhumane…literally!

Ostensibly, this notion enlightened most of us that, so as not to be associated with breeding we ourselves should be responsible enough to demonstrate proper decorum on proper occasions.

A deplorable Friday! March 24

And I cleaned the house just to be displeased! Overly perfect!grr..

my bestfriend was here a while ago, we have planned about him dropping by here today last night. since we haven't seen each other for like 4 weeks or so,, actually it was also my sis's request to ask him to come because she was missing their games together.. and add to that was the fact that she saw him last monday and asked him to drop by anytime this week..

he gave me a call to tell me that he was dropping by but I told him he could only get here after 20 mins cause I wasn't finished yet in cleaning the sala.. and I haven't taken a bath yet! hahahaha! he even said it was my problem that I wasn't able to bathe..hmmpp.. how rude!i was busy you know?!

of course before indulging into entertaining him I decided to finish my chores first.. uhmm chores with the "s" by that I meant a lot of it..

*I folded the clothes which was yeterday washed by my mom so that she won't get infuriated when she gets home!ehehe

*cleaned the whole house,, huhuhu am i turning into a house help?

*watched over my sister,, this was the ultimate test for me!she was on the verge of totally pissing me off to the point of giving her a viscious slap maybe?!ehehe! just kidding!

*washed dishes.. I had no choice?! my Lola was out and me being allergic to seeing dishes stacked on the sink was 'forced' to wash!eheh! well.. not really!i was the one who used the stuffs I washed anyways..

not exaggerating but I was tired considering that I slep overly late last night because of Jackie..ehehe!

so he got here at around 2p.m. and I immediately played the movie 'new york minute' which i borrowed from judy.. I was interested in seeing it cause judy and dez kept on telling me that it was a hilarious movie! well iw as supposed to give this back to judy yesterday but due to time contsraints it was only now when i was given the pleasure of time to watch it.. don't worry judy I'll give this back to you!!eheheh

while the movie was playing I was like lying on a pillow placed on his lap.. which I usually do?! but then he transferred seat to the nearest chair.. I never took it as something odd its just little.. adn so i resumed concentrating on the movie while still lying on the sofa..

I thoug he wasn't really ineterested in the movie but I decided to ignore it,..how did I know? he was texting the whole time! seems to me that given a chance he would walk out anytime but of course he just can't cause I'd be really mad at him..

still I chose to ignore it,, after the movie when I stood up to turn on the computer so I could let him ahve a glimpse to the pictures uploaded from my cam.. somebdoy texted him.. and as I usually do. I grabbed his cellphone..

but what's weird now was that,, he's holding it back!!which he never did before,, and upon seeing him do that I held on to the phone harder making him feeel that he has to let go.. and so he did..

and there goes a text message form a kayzelene who's unknown to me.. which says..

"..ganon.. ako umiiyak lang ako kapag nanjan ang mga friends ko eh.." something like that.. surprised I was I asked him who was that? then he said a friend..

then I said.." why didn't I know about her? I mean how unfair was that.. I was like telling you everything that's been going on with me lately and there you are keeping a secret with who you're texting with?!" " so that's why you won't even bother texting me on my other simcard?"

and he kept on diverting the issue and talked about his new jacket.. argh!

I know that I was able to control my temper at that time cause If I haven't we could reached a bitter fight.. well worse than that!

I replied to the girl's message and said.." who's this? im em, gerald's bestfriend.." as expected there was no reply..

after that encounter he sat back on the sofa.. and after a couple of minutes of silenece prompted me that he'd go home... i was trying to hide my anger but it just came out and I just said.. " eh usually nman past five ka umuuwi ah?" cause it was just 4.30 when he said that..

sensing that he's annoyed by how I just acted I insisted that he go home eventhough he already told me that okay fine he'd leave past 5..

his reason was that there was no one left in their house.. how lame was that?! heused to go and stay here up to like 8 in the evening back then without even bothering about tthat and now he's giving me that excuse??! that's a total crap!

whatever! im not gonna call him.. its up to him to find a way if he's willing to talk to me!! grr.. and besides I was tha one calling him and doing some effort for the past days.. I think its his turn this time!

Miscalculated me...March 25

I have been relishing the first week of my vacation, and just now I spent it by just soothing myself and refining my writing skills by continued updating of my blog.hehehe! indeed my blog was a blessing cause it serves as a channel for my self improvement.

Its been a weird sentiment for me but undoubtedly Ive been feeling miscalculated as regards my personal choices these past few days. Miscalculated in a sense that others just don't understand things through the way I perceive it, making it difficult for contrasting ends to consolidate under a consistent train of thought.

Im cognizant that I've been inconsiderate of others emotions and the possible consequences of such choices I've made. But thankful as anyone else in the world, a new friend made an effort into being conscientious of my emotions. Despite the freshness of the friendship, we often find ourselves having complementary notions on certain issues.

One positive advice she imparted me was learning to love myself before anyone else. She disclosed that the secret to live a satisfied life is to learn to value yourself first before giving priority to the requirements of others. Learn to gratify personal needs, satisfy personal curiosities, give in to some pleasures and accept imperfections and weaknesses not as obstructions for everyday success but as challenges for us to ameliorate our whole being.

She also stressed that not because I'm misunderstood means that I have to be secretive, its just that excessive openness would result to the intrusion of my decisive instinct therefore basing all my judgments in accordance to what others impose on me. With this imposition, the decision then obtains less individual judgment but more of collective thought concealed under a false personal judgment. The best key to my dilemma was that I be duty bound to leaving some things for myself consequently giving me the ideal manipulation of my own life.

Im extending my deepest gratitude to that girl though I can't mention her name here, thank you for saving me from launching defective principles.

Summer job please!

Apart from the reality that summer is most awaited because it would give us students the leisure to unwind after a stressful academic year, and to socialize with other sets of friends it also has its down side. And that down side if I may say is undoubtedly an enormous downside maybe affecting greatly all the planned activities of everyone.

And that is no less than the fact that in summer, there's no allowance therefore there’s no source of income!!uh-oh!! Spoiled summer is just around the corner!!huhuhu

God im in desperate need of a summer job in order for me to sustain in this summer vacation because for sure my Mom won’t fully provide me with allowance with all my escapades. Well, actually I've applied last summer but I backed out myself because during the time I was asked to undergo training the classes is bound to resume meaning my working hours would overlap with my class hours, and that is critically disapproved by my parents.

My Ate Anne dropped by our house from her work, that's only when I found out that she was working as a call center agent. And she encouraged me to try applying also as a part timer since the salary is also good and that she thinks that I won't have a hard time in being accepted as an agent.

Unexpectedly, the next thing I knew was that I found myself seated beside her in front of the computer while surfing the net for possible employment companies and filing up application sheets online.

In my view I loathe the sudden boom of call center agencies and the ridiculous response of every one else regarding the plush amount of salary offered by the said job. Okay, I'd just keep my other opinions to myself cause I might probably arrive at a point when I'd be eating up my words.hahaha!

*play safe mode*