Yup.. as to what my title suggests sorry for me is very precious, not only about what happened yesterday when that’s what i really wanted to hear. Or maybe it was also a part of it being valuable, but this issue is mainly because of what happened between us 5 months ago. How did i arrive with this very serious matter well because....
The other day as I was saying I was really waiting for his call, you know just to let me feel that he’s still alive and kicking,, but then he didnt even called me up.. yup sad but true i was really frustrated about that..
Then just last night I was shocked that while I was talking to my friends shiela and jenny my cellphone rang.. as I saw his name registered on my phone i rushed on answering my phone,, well his voice is a monotone. I don’t know why,,then he asked me why i didn’t even texted him the other day,, i answered that I had my reasons why. Then silence.. well our talk was mostly silence you know! So arghhh.. disappointing! Then he answered,, ‘nothing i just remembered you..’ well i said that its good, then i told him that my sim card is blocked,, you know the whole story about my sim.
Silence again.. then i asked him why didn’t he even replied to my messages the night that we argued? He said in a somehow shouting voice that he already told me that he was going to sleep.. duh?? As if at the very moment after we hung up the phone he already fell asleep..!! then i said why didn’t you even replied the next day or even called me up.. you can’t give me for an excuse that you don’t have any load..argghh!! and the 1 million answer to that is ‘I was sleeping the whole day,, i only get to wake up when there’s a practice!’ is that reasonable??? Then i said in a sarcastic tone, ‘its a good thing that you are still able to wake up huh??’ then he whispered, ‘yeah i wish I never did!’ whatever??!!! amppfff..
“i just waited for your text and call the whole day yesterday.. you know because Im waiting for a very important word! You know,, you saying ‘sorry em ah,, kaw din kasi ang arte mo eh!’ even that approach would do!” then he said , “nangunguna ka kasi eh! tumawag ako kasi naalala kita tska gusto ko rin magsorry dun sa ginawa ko sayo nung isang araw!”
i you were on my stand at that moment would you be happy being called nagunguna?? I was so damned disappointed when he said those words,, its as if,, if I never said that ive been waiting for that word he won’t even bother to say sorry! You know the feeling??=’( then i said ‘sorry kung nagunguna ah,, importante lang kasi tlga sken ung word na un eh!!!’ then the line got cut,, and he never called again,, but he texted me which says
‘sorry.. d naman kita masisisi kung ganyan ka eh.. antipatiko rin kasi ako eh.. sorry po talaga.. sorry’ to be honest this message didn’t do any good..for it just made me recall the way he was talking to me.. he was so harsh,, then what a shift in the mood.. now he’s like the good one..
to explain further why I was so damned sad about what happened. well that word has been important for me because ever since we talked he never even got to say sorry to the pain he caused me for the last five months,, I don’t know if he’s aware of that but whatever it is it really made me cry! As I recounted to zea what happened to our conversation, i was crying again...! because it seems to me that he won’t even realize his fault if zea hadn’t texted him.. is he that insensitive??? What ever.. zea advised me that I shouldn’t talk to him for sometime for me to be able to ease out the pain.. well that’s what I really plan to do,, since my sim card is still blocked up to this moment!!
The other day as I was saying I was really waiting for his call, you know just to let me feel that he’s still alive and kicking,, but then he didnt even called me up.. yup sad but true i was really frustrated about that..
Then just last night I was shocked that while I was talking to my friends shiela and jenny my cellphone rang.. as I saw his name registered on my phone i rushed on answering my phone,, well his voice is a monotone. I don’t know why,,then he asked me why i didn’t even texted him the other day,, i answered that I had my reasons why. Then silence.. well our talk was mostly silence you know! So arghhh.. disappointing! Then he answered,, ‘nothing i just remembered you..’ well i said that its good, then i told him that my sim card is blocked,, you know the whole story about my sim.
Silence again.. then i asked him why didn’t he even replied to my messages the night that we argued? He said in a somehow shouting voice that he already told me that he was going to sleep.. duh?? As if at the very moment after we hung up the phone he already fell asleep..!! then i said why didn’t you even replied the next day or even called me up.. you can’t give me for an excuse that you don’t have any load..argghh!! and the 1 million answer to that is ‘I was sleeping the whole day,, i only get to wake up when there’s a practice!’ is that reasonable??? Then i said in a sarcastic tone, ‘its a good thing that you are still able to wake up huh??’ then he whispered, ‘yeah i wish I never did!’ whatever??!!! amppfff..
“i just waited for your text and call the whole day yesterday.. you know because Im waiting for a very important word! You know,, you saying ‘sorry em ah,, kaw din kasi ang arte mo eh!’ even that approach would do!” then he said , “nangunguna ka kasi eh! tumawag ako kasi naalala kita tska gusto ko rin magsorry dun sa ginawa ko sayo nung isang araw!”
i you were on my stand at that moment would you be happy being called nagunguna?? I was so damned disappointed when he said those words,, its as if,, if I never said that ive been waiting for that word he won’t even bother to say sorry! You know the feeling??=’( then i said ‘sorry kung nagunguna ah,, importante lang kasi tlga sken ung word na un eh!!!’ then the line got cut,, and he never called again,, but he texted me which says
‘sorry.. d naman kita masisisi kung ganyan ka eh.. antipatiko rin kasi ako eh.. sorry po talaga.. sorry’ to be honest this message didn’t do any good..for it just made me recall the way he was talking to me.. he was so harsh,, then what a shift in the mood.. now he’s like the good one..
to explain further why I was so damned sad about what happened. well that word has been important for me because ever since we talked he never even got to say sorry to the pain he caused me for the last five months,, I don’t know if he’s aware of that but whatever it is it really made me cry! As I recounted to zea what happened to our conversation, i was crying again...! because it seems to me that he won’t even realize his fault if zea hadn’t texted him.. is he that insensitive??? What ever.. zea advised me that I shouldn’t talk to him for sometime for me to be able to ease out the pain.. well that’s what I really plan to do,, since my sim card is still blocked up to this moment!!
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