“mahal mo pa ba cya?” this is what my friend Nancy asked me when we had an online chat. Its was difficult for me to answer and to find the best word to answer her surprising question. But then I was able to reply “masakit mang aminin anche,, OO eh!” hay nako.. reality check lang db...
1.may gf na cya..
2.hindi cya nagpaparamdam sayo ngayon..
3.bestfriend ka na lang ATA sknya..
4.nagpromise kayo na hindi na kayo babalik sa dati..
ayan na naman kasi eh Im soaring nanaman with the feeling na kahit papano ay naamin ko na sa iba at hindi ko na kailangan pang magpretend na he’s just nothing in my life..wwoohhh!! at least db?? Its so ironic because despite all the pain that he caused me,, I just dont know how to stop loving him...
whew!! Its just so damned hard to fall in love,, sometimes I just wanna shout to the world what I really feel for him.. but what’s the use?? it wont do any good..he’s just not there to listen..or maybe he doesn’t even want to listen...
Sad: “love is hard to understand, impossible to live with yet so miserable to live without..I have loved and have been loved.. sadly though never at the same time..”
Then I narrated the story about the sorry issue,, ang advice nya sken ay sabhin ko na daw skanya ung totoo.. tulad din ng advice sken ni zea,, tigilan ko na daw yung bait baitan mode ko.. magpakatotoo naman na daw ako! Sana db ganon sya kadali?? Eh feeling ko nga nahahawa na cya sa pagkapscyho ng gf nya eh??haaayy.. then habanag nagcahahat kami ni anche may pinabasa cya skeng story.. grabe tlga naman sobrang feeling ko eh nakakarelate ako dun sa story.. ung first part pa lang ng story ay napaluha na agad ako,,, grabe sumikip ung dibdib ko na feeling ko ay ganon din ang nagyayari smin.. ung feeling na para bang story namin dalawa un.. sabi nga ni anche eh.. “sabihin mo na sknya kung ano tlga ung nararamdaman mo para matauhan sya db?? Kesa naman ikaw ung nahihirapan jan db??” hay anche.. sana ganon kadali.. na para bang wlaa naman akong makukuhang maganda kung ammin ako sknya eh.. baka nga lumayo sya ulit eh,, kaya mas maganda pa cguro na isuppress ko na lang itong nararamdaman ko sknya eh.. eh db nga sbi nila kung kami kami naman db??? Haaayyyy.. wish ko lang db???
To the point na we had that talk. Alam moh un, ung THE TALK. It happened on our 2nd anniversary. While having dinner, bigla sya nagsalita. “Baby, can we talk. You know. About us?!” he asked. “Sure. Bakit?! Is there something wrong?” I asked him back. “Di ba sabi natin dati na pag hindi na tayo nag workout, we can set each other free na?” sabi nya. Uh-oh!! Ano toh?!?! Oh no! this is not happening!!! “Kasi nahihirapan na koh. I don’t think it’s still working out for me.” He continued. Ayos ka din noh!!! Hahanap ka lang ng timing para makipag break, anniversary pa natin!!! Wala ka sa ayos pare!!! !@#$ ka!!! Anong gusto moh sabihin koh?!?! Nahihirapan ka?! Tingin moh sakin?! All these years, nagpapakasaya lang?!?! Ayos ka din noh!!! Kung alam moh lang mga pinagdaanan koh para lang sayo!!! !@#$!!! “Okay. If that’s what you want.” Sabi koh. Leche! Nag pakamartyr na naman akoh!!! “One question lang. is there another girl?!” tanong koh sa kanya. I nervously waited for his answer. He looked in my eyes. Then slowly nodded. “Meron. Classmate koh sa physics. I'm so sorry.” Sabi nya. Sorry?!?! Anong sorry?!?! Makakain koh ba yang sorry na yan?!?! Mababalik ba nyan ung dati?!?! Sagutin moh nga akoh?!?!? Anoh?! Langya! Bigla bumagsak mundo koh nun. I felt like dying na. I wanted to cry at mag eskandalo dun pero I can’t. Ginusto koh toh eh. Paninindigan koh katangahan koh.
2.hindi cya nagpaparamdam sayo ngayon..
3.bestfriend ka na lang ATA sknya..
4.nagpromise kayo na hindi na kayo babalik sa dati..
ayan na naman kasi eh Im soaring nanaman with the feeling na kahit papano ay naamin ko na sa iba at hindi ko na kailangan pang magpretend na he’s just nothing in my life..wwoohhh!! at least db?? Its so ironic because despite all the pain that he caused me,, I just dont know how to stop loving him...
whew!! Its just so damned hard to fall in love,, sometimes I just wanna shout to the world what I really feel for him.. but what’s the use?? it wont do any good..he’s just not there to listen..or maybe he doesn’t even want to listen...
Sad: “love is hard to understand, impossible to live with yet so miserable to live without..I have loved and have been loved.. sadly though never at the same time..”
Then I narrated the story about the sorry issue,, ang advice nya sken ay sabhin ko na daw skanya ung totoo.. tulad din ng advice sken ni zea,, tigilan ko na daw yung bait baitan mode ko.. magpakatotoo naman na daw ako! Sana db ganon sya kadali?? Eh feeling ko nga nahahawa na cya sa pagkapscyho ng gf nya eh??haaayy.. then habanag nagcahahat kami ni anche may pinabasa cya skeng story.. grabe tlga naman sobrang feeling ko eh nakakarelate ako dun sa story.. ung first part pa lang ng story ay napaluha na agad ako,,, grabe sumikip ung dibdib ko na feeling ko ay ganon din ang nagyayari smin.. ung feeling na para bang story namin dalawa un.. sabi nga ni anche eh.. “sabihin mo na sknya kung ano tlga ung nararamdaman mo para matauhan sya db?? Kesa naman ikaw ung nahihirapan jan db??” hay anche.. sana ganon kadali.. na para bang wlaa naman akong makukuhang maganda kung ammin ako sknya eh.. baka nga lumayo sya ulit eh,, kaya mas maganda pa cguro na isuppress ko na lang itong nararamdaman ko sknya eh.. eh db nga sbi nila kung kami kami naman db??? Haaayyyy.. wish ko lang db???
To the point na we had that talk. Alam moh un, ung THE TALK. It happened on our 2nd anniversary. While having dinner, bigla sya nagsalita. “Baby, can we talk. You know. About us?!” he asked. “Sure. Bakit?! Is there something wrong?” I asked him back. “Di ba sabi natin dati na pag hindi na tayo nag workout, we can set each other free na?” sabi nya. Uh-oh!! Ano toh?!?! Oh no! this is not happening!!! “Kasi nahihirapan na koh. I don’t think it’s still working out for me.” He continued. Ayos ka din noh!!! Hahanap ka lang ng timing para makipag break, anniversary pa natin!!! Wala ka sa ayos pare!!! !@#$ ka!!! Anong gusto moh sabihin koh?!?! Nahihirapan ka?! Tingin moh sakin?! All these years, nagpapakasaya lang?!?! Ayos ka din noh!!! Kung alam moh lang mga pinagdaanan koh para lang sayo!!! !@#$!!! “Okay. If that’s what you want.” Sabi koh. Leche! Nag pakamartyr na naman akoh!!! “One question lang. is there another girl?!” tanong koh sa kanya. I nervously waited for his answer. He looked in my eyes. Then slowly nodded. “Meron. Classmate koh sa physics. I'm so sorry.” Sabi nya. Sorry?!?! Anong sorry?!?! Makakain koh ba yang sorry na yan?!?! Mababalik ba nyan ung dati?!?! Sagutin moh nga akoh?!?!? Anoh?! Langya! Bigla bumagsak mundo koh nun. I felt like dying na. I wanted to cry at mag eskandalo dun pero I can’t. Ginusto koh toh eh. Paninindigan koh katangahan koh.
Grabe eto yung part na feeling ko eh gusto ko na lang humagulgol.. naalala ko tuloy ung nangyaring talk nmin the day before my bday.. nung cnb nya na ititgil nya na ung panliligaw,, that’s the moment when I felt na para ngang may ibang girl na involve.. haaayyy grabe!!! Kakaiyak.. ayan nanaman crybaby mode na naman ako!=”(
anche thansk pla sa time na makinig kahapo.. luv yah tlga.. ur the best as in.. about kay red.. kakaloka tlga ah... bakit nabasa nya na ba ung novel mo??? bkit lam nya ung red na name??
besshie.. tnx tlga na lagi ka anjan.. as in.. mwahh!!
momy jenny.. nagloloko pa ang sim ko eh!!harhar..
zea.. gurl tnx din for making me feel better as always naman db???luv yah!!
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