Tipping point

Ask me what are the things that I badly want as of the moment.

Peace of mind.
I wanna clear my head from all the negative thoughts that's been lurking inside my head and draining all my energy.

Guidance
Ability to discern which of the things that I've been planning to do are just and best for the incidents that's been happening lately.

A little more sympathy
Recently, i've been feeling a certain change of heart. To say that I've been insensitive is an understatement, but perhaps it'll be more specific to say that I'm becoming apathetic.

This'll be the first time that i'd be putting a definition to what I actually endure.

Tipping point is that certain period in our life when we become less connected to others and tend to consider their emotions less than we used to be.

Layman's term - this is the time when we feel like we've had more shit than what we could actually take.

I wouldn't claim my patience to be impeccable cause God knows mine's shorter than my pinky finger. But I know very well that I'm a person capable of understanding that things don't, and to some extent couldn't always go my way. Hence, I give second, third and infinite chances to individuals I consider needy of this privilege.

Yet I know that no matter how I unceasingly give endless chances to people the inevitable would come. I wouldn't always be as foolishly kind and unbelievably considerate to everyone.

Sometimes soon, at times late. But I cannot change the reality that I'm no fictional character in your typical chiclit who's capable of being conned all the time.I arrive at my own tipping point. After which what I fear comes to the surface -- I withdraw myself from everyone.

This'll be followed by my defense to protect myself from absolutely everything or everyone who might just again push me to my tipping point. Which I potentially believe to be anyone physically close to me. I cannot imagine myself being that withdrawn. So I pray that this turbulence that's been rocking my emotions and derailing my thoughts, just like the rain will pass sooner than I realize.

Love and Kisses,
~Maureen

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