UNSAID FEELINGS

to mine--

god its been two months since we broke up whats weird about is its just now when I get to feel all the pain that our broke up caused me..

late reaction maybe but then what resurrected this feeling was when i saw you last last saturday at zea's house..

how we "deliberately" decided not to talk with each other.. I guess that was the very reason why I am hurting right now..

yeah I know for a fact that its my fault that I was the oe who lost time for our relationship,, but then maybe just maybe at least you have tried to reconsider my plea for our reconciliation,..,
just like what I said,, " i love you now more than before"

and I wont ever be tired of telling you that.. but I suppose its too late like 3 months or so too late..

I knwo you have a new flame right now,, and tha fact that we are studying in the same school..

I know that you already changed your password to that email add you maid with your initials together,.. I know all about that.. I guess you ought to know how "spy like" your ex is..

just so you know Ive been keeping track of whats been going on between the two of you.. yeah I may seem to tlook insane but I guess that's the only way when i could at the very least get connected with you,., I cant explain how but thats how I feel about what Ive been doing..

my friends are getting tired in giving me the same pieces of advice to move on from the thoughts of you.. but then again being hard headed I refuse to even take a look at that idea..

I still love you,, yeah that's it,, it took me two long months before i realize it,, but then just like the saying better late than never im glad I was able to at least admit to myself that reality instead of prolonging my agony of trying to convince myself that im over you when in fact im not..

i dont wanna be unfair.. to you and to myself and to the persons who would love the two of us,,
but I guess this is it..

Im moving on from what we used to have..

its unimaginably difficult since what we had was more than a connection,, its something deeper than that..

more than the relationship,, more than the friendship,, more than anything else.. you became my other half.. and you know that.

but then nothing is constant in this world but change so maybe this is it for us..

perhaps its gonna take me forever to move on but I have to give myself the chance to free myself from being entangled with something that I can no longer have..


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