the way you least expect it to be..

"Just when you think you know something, you have to look at it in another way." –Dead Poet's Society

Frustrating isn't it? when we think we already have a perfect grasp of something, then suddenly with just a blink of an eye everything was way too opposite from the way we have foreseen it.

This happens because most of the time we neglect the other possible outcomes of our actions, or sometimes we overlook the factors that in the long run would unexpectedly affect the result. Furthermore we habitually rely on the matter to work for itself in unveiling to us the possibilities we are to face in the future.

With this recklessness arise the dilemmas we come across to in our daily lives.

From a plain assumption that our decisions would always end up the way we planned it to be, or due to the notion of fatalism we believe that if God's will things would turn out properly at the end of the day. The tendency for us not to even recognize the weak and strong points of such decisions we make, could be associated to this kind of mindset.

Whether we admit it or not, frequently when we make up our minds we always think that it's the best for the moment *stress posed at the moment only* when it is needed especially if we are deciding alone. Perhaps it is caused by our confusion, or excitement, or narrow mindedness, or pressure or just by our plain stupidity!

Taking what the quote recommends, we must learn to look on matters on a different perspective. And by this different perspective I stand for, that one should be open to others' point of view on a certain issue in order for one not to be confined to the result which he intends to be achieved instead for him to be open to other probable effects. Results of this inquiry for opinions may at times be opposing to what we have anticipated to occur yet still beneficial for us in the aspect of conditioning ourselves on what to expect to materialize.

For all we know: what we think it is, is not really what it is but is just a product of what we think it is.

If we arrive at an encounter with this dilemma, we should be wise enough to discern on what to believe.

For at times what we perceive as real may just be a dream or worst, just a make believe reality and waking up from this dream maybe the saddest waking up we could ever think of. Cause most of the time some things are just too good to be true!


Just like you, you're just to good to be true which makes you only be a part of one of my dreams—one of my very bad dreams!!!

March 9, Thursday

Matters of the heart---
Sir Baccay wasn’t around which is sort of weird cause no matter how late he is he usually comes to class. Too bad I really wasted us to discuss Rosseau's write up, its because I wanted to oppose his ideas,wahahaha!

It poses blatant gender discrimination, and being a feminist of course I refuse to accept his arguments especially on the part where he said that women need men. No!!! its you men who need us, duh??!!! Ehehehe! No point of feeling infuriated cause no one would be able to oppose me here, and no debate can be equated to 'boringness' I'd rather save my emotions when we get to discuss the article in class.haha!

So there came Sir Agui, and there was this observer who came to class for him. The discussion was tedious, but of course conforming to what he usually advises us. We need to listen cause we should serve our purpose as students of the university!pfftt!! how bout switching places?! Them being in a boring class,, I think they would feel the exact same thing!argh!

I went to the washroom for quite a while to let out the boringness I've been feeling. I failed to come back to class immediately cause I was able to come across a friend and had a little chit chat with her.

Sadly though when I came back I saw the interesting look in the eyes of my classmates, whoah! it seems like he's been saying something worth hearing, and so I slowly slid on my seat so as not to cause distraction to Sir Agui who looked really serious more than ever while he was narrating something.

Trying hard to follow their train of thought, he was saying something about a bracelet and him wanting to beat a guy when he saw him. Waahh! Everything's so vague,, huhuhu! How I wish I got back earlier maybe I have missed a lot on the story! And I think its about him. Good thing vet and anne were nice enough to recount the story to dez and I again after Sir Agui left the room.

Here it goes, when Sir Agui's about to leave the country for a play in Australia(?) can't remember if I was right, but he's going abroad that's for sure. As a surprise he enrolled his lovelife (fiancee) to a driving school so that she'd be able to use his car while he's not around.

And then one time when his lovelife left her cellphone to him, as he was browsing he saw messages such as "kumain ka na ba?”" things like that. Most likely mushy stuffs just like what boyfriends and girlfriends usually tell each other. Curious and shocked he was he replied to one of the messages asking the sender to meet up with him *of course the sender doesn't know it was him right!* at SM north EDSA in quantum.

When he got there he was clueless on how does the person he was waiting for looks like. And upon seeing a guy from afar seemingly texting/replying to his messages he somehow had the hunch that it was him whom he was looking for. And his gut feeling was affirmed when he saw a bracelet on the guys wrist exactly the same as his!OH MY??!! OUCH!!! The bracelet was given to her by his lovelife from her Laguna trip.

It was at this part when he said he wanted to beat the guy, but instead he just decided to head home and confront his lovelife about the messages.

Fearless enough his lovelife confessed to him that she had a relationship with that guy who was the nephew or son (?) of the owner of the driving school. And that he was the one who taught his lovelife driving lessons. GOD!!

When he asked her if something already happened between them, she can't give him any reply!GOD!!This was the most painful part!!! Cause just like what my classmates were telling him, that inability to answer verified the occurrence of the incident.

Looking at Sir Agui's blank reaction to their comments, I can tell that he's fully aware of that 'silence means yes' principle. And I can tell he was trying his best to hold back his tears at that point..aww.. At that moment I can so feel the pain he was suffering upon hearing those comments, maybe if I wasn't aware that we're in class I could have approached him in front and have given him a hug followed by a tap on his shoulder as a sign of commendation for his toughness in handling their problem.

It was only at that day when I found out that his been with his lovelife for the last 10 years!whoah!! its length was superb! And he often hear others say that with the longetivity of their relationship, nothing or simply no one could come between them. But as he said, they were all wrong!

In fact it was because of this lovelife of his that's why he has chosen to leave the seminary. Aww.. it only proves he loves this lovelife of his so much,, aww.. so painful!

We asked him if they were back on track, and he said they're still talking things over.

Pissed I was when I heard some of my classmates say

"Naku sir, wala na yan, kasi kapag trust na ang nawala mahirap ng ibalik pa!"

I beg to differ with that perception! Cause someone has already proven to me that with the presence of real love all the imperfections committed by your partner could be erased to oblivion.

I don't know I was just annoyed, yeah maybe for some its real but their comment won't even contribute anything to help Sir Agui to have a good decision. He's been having a hard time why add up to the sadness??!! He needs encouragement not those kinds of stuffs! I believe he knows that, and he doesn't need to hear it from a bunch of people which would only make him feel that what his lovelife did was grave enough not to be worth of forgiveness.

He said if they won't be able to settle things between them he'd probably head back to the seminary and eventually become a priest. Surprisingly my classmates shouted "NO SIR!!" he even joked

"baka next time ako na ang makita niyong nagmimisa?!"

the more my classmates shouted no.

The story, him, his reaction...everything made me teary---eyed. Cause if one would only have the chance to see his glow each time he's mentioning his lovelife one would be able to feel how he loved her so much.

And then suddenly, this is what would happen to them?! He said the other guy offered a lot to his lovelife and compared to him he has nothing to offer her. Aww.. another painful part!

If I were to choose, I wish they'd be able to patch things up and resume their relationship. But if it's God's will for that to occur in order for Sir Agui to serve him, then I won't oppose. But I just hope no matter what happens, Sir Agui would be happy cause he deserves to be one. A nice, dedicated and faithful person like him deserves it more than anyone else.


March 10, Friday

Bewildered me..
Thursday was the super day for me, lot of unexpected things occurred which contributed to my confusion. And with a quiz waiting for me the next day I had no choice but to force myself to read the two chapters in our book.

Waaahhh!! I feel so tormented! I don't know, its hard to explain its beyond the comprehension of my vocabulary.

Good thing I was able to understand some of the thoughts, and fortunate me I got 15 out of 20 from the quiz. Well I could have gotten 17 of not of my stupidity, but then I won’t complain at least I was able to get a good score despite feeling bothered while taking the test.

Sir Esguerra part II
just to lighten my mood, id share another encounter of mine with sir esgui!nyahahahaa! I know,, i
know I sound so ironic cause i was claiming that im so over him and stuffs.. but you know.. I just can't help it!nyahahahaha!

a while ago as I was sitting along the corridor with some of my classmates, while reading thge strunk and white book, so as to be prepared for sir esgui's quiz..

we setled to read there cause my classmates in the room are so like bumble bees,,theyve buzzing around the whole period! without even bothering for the ones who intend to review.. grr..shame on those stubborn people!

moving on.. while sitting there we were cracking some jokes with each others while at the same time tryong our best to comprehend what we've been reading..

though we're aware that sir esguerra's class was just in the room next to ours we never knew that he'd dismiss the class a bit earlier cause when he got out of the room Mam ledesma was still inside ours..

while he's waiting he stood next to us who're sitiing on the floor as he was doing some stuffs on his phone..

and out of nowhere he uttered "oi bago yan ah?nagaaral kayo? teka nga.." as he was positioning his self to take a picture of us..

but of course we posed!nyahahaha! while holding the book of strunk and white,, which I believe was his main reason for taking a picture of us!nyhahaha!

whatever his reason maybe im happy that we have a photo on his phone!nyeh nyeh nyeh!!ahahah! sorry for the ones who missed the chance!wahahahah!

atleast we were able to make him happy to see us studying for his quiz that's really something huh??!!ahahaha! once in a blue moon that is..eheheh!--- taken from my livejournal

Prudence!! Is one trait I think you lack..
I'm naturally born possessing weak lungs making me susceptible to cough virus, dirt, smoke and the like. As they say it's the side stream smoke caused by the cigarette which is more harmful than the mainstream smoke. Meaning the people who were able to inhale smoke from the cigarette are most likely to acquire a worse disease compared to the one smoking itself.

Though dangerous some people still engage to this kind of vice, which are most of the time teens and young adults. Normal to some on our class there are also this people who smoke, I guess most of them are ladies.

Personally I prefer not to even try smoking and I kept on advising my friends not to even try. However I respect the people who have chosen to smoke, cause for sure during this age they're aware of the consequences of their choice and actions. Add to the fact that they're not the type who also influences their friends to try their endeavor is worth recognizing, so I say they're not that bad people compared to others.

"Hindi naman porket naninigarilyo ka ay masama ka ng tao ah?!" yep, I agree! All the more that if you're a lady and a smoker no guy would ever take you seriously. That's the first pointless, biased comment I ever heard from you! Disappointing,,hmp!

Ok so I'd give you the benefit of the doubt that you're just concerned, well you could have at least approached the person involved personally so to at least lessen the humiliation she'd feel. But no, you've chosen to confront her with that 'opinion' of yours in front of the class,, hello?!?! I just hope you could have at least tried to consider that she's a lady, a girl duh??! Sensitive!!! Arghh..!!

Sorry to say but even though you're concerned, we haven't felt the concern brought along by your means of confronting her!hmpp try to be nice and try to lessen your being sarcastic if you don't want your students to have a bad memory of yours!

Exc’z

_*Sir Tobias was dubious of the Rizalists onto their veneration of Rizal, because when a student asked the speaker on their stand regarding the issue PD 1017(?) the state of emergency declaration, the speaker replied that they'd only comment on that issue when they're asked to do so. Duh?!? If Rizal was still alive, being an advocate of nationalism he could have been one of the first picketers even before the declaration was made cause as they say he was a 'conscious' hero. He knew about it beforehand for sure. maybe they're just one of those hoax organizations wanting to extort money by being fraud Rizalists??! or maybe they're just a cult??! either way,, they are so not good actors!pathetic peeps!

_*Ainjl's comment on my LJ was funny, it was just now when I got to read it! really I am the 'passive-quiet-type-girl' in his class! Don't I look and sound convincing?!hahahaha!

*Baffled mode*