what's on my mind..

essence..!!
"May bukas pa.. sa iyong buhay.." i dont know the next line of the song.. and I intend not to find out cause upon hearing it being sang by my drunkard neighbors.. the essence of the song started to fade..

the lyrics of the song is supposed to give hope to people who are struggling in their lives just to survive and be able to surpass all the tribulations they are facing in their day to day lives..

but when does something become senseless? I believe it occurs when that something was used persons who aren't supposed to use it.. or the ones who merely disregard its real essence..

and that I assume was what my neighbors just did.. I can still remember the scene.. how they are singing their hearts out with that song.. i dont know where they got the guts to sing it.. when they are not concrete manifestations of it?

just imagine them having 'shots' as they call it everyday.. if not drinking they would settle in watching off track betting at a nearby house.. to describe them collectively,. they are jobless,futile,wife dependent losers.!! mean? well i hate those types of humans if you can still call them one?!

so far i am more than thankful that they weren't talking to me.. cause i know the exact look I would definitely project them no matter how nice they would approach me..

accomplished!
overall my day was really tiring.. but nevertheless i enjoyed it because I know within myself that I was able o finish stuffs that I planned to finish for this day..

im done with my math assign.. though it was long..good I was equipped with all the patience in entering data on my calculator.. :)

finished the history religious schism chapter.. its not that long compared to the previous chapter so I was complacent that I would be able to comprehend it with ease.. :)

im planning to finish the rc handout so that I wont be bothered by the unfinished tasks tomorrow!

I cleaned the whole house.. wohoo!! I can still recall how lazy I was last weekend.. good thing its over now.. I dont wanna be left with a pile of tasks to finish.. cause I think its not me when i cram a lot..!:)

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Thanks for the reply on my email ainjl..:) what you said somehow motivated me to be firm in what i believe and on the notion of freedom of expression and speech.. :)

I dont need..
I dont need eyes who'd critique my persona from very little basis..
I dont need ears who'd hardly listen to my pleads..
I dont need mouths who'd yell to my face my flaws..
I dont need a heart that would be as hard as a rock to feel that I am already hurting..
and I dont need persons who'd hinder as I exercise my rights and privileges to which I am entitled to enjoy..

exc'z-
-I prefer to remain silent for the moment but please dont let me feel the need to break it..

-Ate anne sent me a mesage.. hope she can find a job.. i really think she needs it..

-I hope bianx would be dmitted at stella maris college.. its a good school at least its not for girls anymore cause id definitely disagree if she'd be enrolled in an all girls exclusive school..!! no offense but I think studying in those kinds of schools only promote lesbianism!

*apathetic mode*