Pointless..

I dont think i was able to have a good head start for this week.. its Monday and i started it with laziness.. i wans’t able to review my notes for a quiz today in our journalism class because i watched two dvd’s yesterday constantine and if only.. and also i updated my blog and talked to mine over the phone instead of reading..

And i think i dont have any right to complain when i had a hard time a while ago answering the questions in our quiz.. but i did complian.. and in fact it ruined my day..!!

Math class i was trying to scan jenny’s notes so that i could somehow get a hold of some infos that might be included in the quiz.. but as of course you can’t do two things at the same time.. i cant listen to ms. Anonas’ lecture about a bunch of hard to understand numbers and read about 8 pages of narrative at the same time. as i reslt i wasn’t able to pick up anything from what i’ve read.. and as a bonus i wasn’t able to understand our math lecture..

Computer.. i was shocked when our prof told us that we’re about to have the prelims practical exam today.. of course we cant do anything about it but to take the test whether we are ready or not.. as im taking the test i was feeling kinda complacent that i wont have a hard time in making a web page.. but i got stuck when i was about to change the background of my page.. i knew i was entering the wrong code but i couldn’t think of the right code.. im feeling kinda scared to ask dez beside me because our prof was standing behind our row.. its a good thing that she went to the front row.. and I was able to ask dez on what to do.. and then the full composing of the code went well.. and another thing that pressured me during the exam was when i would glance at dez and she seems so calm about the exam while here i am panicking about my background!!

when i was about to ask our prof to check my work i was surprised that the links that i made aren’t working. And then i tried relocating the link code.. when i refreshed the browser at exactly the moment when my prof was already standing behind my computer.. the link code appeared when its not supposed to appear.. then she said “ok may minus na yan..” argghhh.. that was sheer carelessness.. i didn’t notice that while i was copying the code to the other side i deleted a less then sign which made the code appear.. i fixed it then she came back to check may page.. but i guess its pointless since i already got minus points for it..=(

Journalism.. uhmm.. can we not talk about that?? Ohh.. well ok.. so we had a quiz which i consider super hard among his 2 other quizzes.. i know it was hard for me becaus ei didn’t read the handouts.. and that’s me to blame.. i know.. but its over and i just cant turn back the time and read my notes and pass that exam.. im gonna flunk that one.. that’s for sure!! Sadly though that flunking grade would somehow ruin my record of good grades in his quizzes.. i really felt bad about that.. as if i just wanna dispappear during the exam.. because no matter how hard i try to recall some parts that i have read.. i think its just pointless because nothing go stuck in mind because i was just scanning and not reading at all.. its my first time to feel so helpless.. my paper was so blank during the essay part.. since im not the type of person who would try to make adlibs that are irrelevant to the topic.. it was so hard for me to answer that part.. i really feel bad about it..=(

My feeling intensified when i received my second quiz on his subject.. i got 46 out of 50.. a perfect score in the two essays.. that’s the time when i realized that i’ve wasted my opportunity to maintain my good grade in his quizzes.. and that’s my fault.. if only i was respponsible enough to read my notes.. that’s a harsh slap of reality for me alright!!

I can say that because of that somehow i was able to clear out my mind and not to feel lazy during this year..at least i was able to draw realizations from my mistakes!!

Natsci.. typical set-up the super hard recitation which i think that no one would be able to survive at!! But i want to commend vincent about it.. because i can see how he was ablt to please sir olivar with his answers a while ago!!

My dad and i argued again.. uhmm i think for the nth time??!! dont wanna talk about it!

If only....

I want to entertain myself so i would tell something about the movie if only!! The story of the movie was so good that i cried my heart out.. the movie was about showing the person you love at the very moment when he was still able to feel and appreciate it.. and not by the time that he would be lying six feet below the ground..

Often times we tend to take them for granted eventhough we know deep down in ourselves that we wont be able to live without them beside us.. its about appreciating your loved one and making them feel loved even at the expense of your own life..

I’ve never cried over a movie as much as i cried while watching if only.. i guess the part that made me cry was the thought of losing the one you love without even being able to let that person feel how important he is to you.. i dont know but that’s one of my super fears.. i cant bear to lose my loved ones.. i sont think i would be able to move on!!

Eventhough im aware that im not the perfect person that others expect to love them.. i dont want the time to come when i would regret all the times that i wasted in not letting them feel how they mean to me.. i hate saying the line..if only..=(


Plot summary:
After his impetuous musician girlfriend, Samantha (Hewitt), dies in an accident shortly after they had a fight (and nearly broke up), a grief-stricken British businessman, Ian Wyndham (Nicholls), living in London gets a chance to relive the day all over again, in the hope of changing the events that led up to her getting killed...

*sober mode*