Putting my life in order!

"Though at times you may feel that the sky is falling around you, never give up. For everyday--- is a new day!"- Ace, Chicken Little

There are occasions in our lives that cause us to feel miserable, they may come once a week or sometimes twice or thrice, but if you’re unfortunate enough it comes each and every waking day of your life.

When these instances come about us, we habitually situate the fault to certain individuals surrounding us, our friends, our family, if we’re responsible enough.. with Ourselves. But a lot of times we tend to put the blame on the condition, or if worst comes to worse.. to the supreme being himself.

Looking back during the ancient times individuals consider death, conflicts and tragedies as a root for misery. Those aforementioned cases can be considered majorly depressing for us nowadays because it involves lives.

Just like what Sir Esguerra used to say, “Anything involving life is important and can be considered newsworthy.”

Diverting it on the perspective of everyday dilemmas people at the present time have lesser value judgments when it comes to discerning which matter are to be deemed as worthy to be considered as a problem or not.

When one losses a pen
has too much pimple on his face,
was jilted by a prospective lover,
has acquired failing grades in an exam despite the fact that you studied so hard, having no money which leads to not having any food to eat,
not having the guts to settle for a proper ‘real’ diet..
being rumored of having an illicit affair,
having no friends to converse to during times of depression,
being blamed for something you haven’t really done..
not looking good which makes you feel less confident..
having to deal with circumstances you’re not used in dealing to
not knowing what others think of you, and having this urge of finding out..
being stuck in a scene which you least wanted to be..
not being given the chance to explain your side..
disappointing the persons who look up on you too much..
feeling helpless and dumb on situations when you are most likely expected to excel..
and above all these was the feeling that people around you just don’t value you the way you value them!!!

These occasions I can say are familiar to teens like us, who are struggling to get a hold a spot on the fast pacing adult life we’re about to belong to while trying to move away from the customary beliefs which we are accustomed stumbling upon,,

This period I define as the ‘floating’ moments of the teenage life, wherein we teens hare having a hard time adjusting to become so called adults.. and it was during this time that we encounter most of the predicaments to which we are experiencing an intricate time passing through.

Most of the time it was the teenagers who often times feel that the world was so against them, especially when cases such that for once they’ve tried to plan things out to have a better outcome,, but eventually it turned out the exact opposite despite of it being planned.

Though teenagers are known for this kind of attitude, one should commend them when it comes to being positive in instances when they are most likely to become desperate, because they can still manage to become happy. This is characterized by their immaturity in handling problems; they have this propensity not to take things seriously which I think is somehow advantageous. So as not to arrive to too much depression when things don’t turn out the way they are anticipated.

Because taking things too seriously would direct one to become paranoid, chiefly when one becomes predisposed to consider every aspect to be a problem when in reality its just natural occurrences.

From this one must able to deduce that life no matter how complicated, how problematical and how exhausting should still be enjoyed cause in everyday there would always be a tomorrow for us to be able to make up to the imperfections we have committed the past day.

I don’t know how was I able to disembark in this kind of realization,, conceivably it is because I have been through all those problems,, okay maybe not that through it,, but I am starting to deal with it.. Positively no matter how hard it is!

Saturday, March 4
_* I woke up relatively later than the usual weekend-accustomed-wake-up-time, possibly due to exhaustion from the past day’s trip. Even so I don’t have any complaints cause I enjoyed the trip!I really did!:)

_*As I rose from my bed, I immediately reached for a pen and paper and scribbled some plans for the day.

And among my plans were the following:
-read history chapter 16-check!
-divide the topics for our Biology reporting*this ate up most of my time!*check!
-answer math assignment..check! I finished this cramming!hahaha!
-update blog!*its included cause I promised to myself I would update everyday!hahaha!*

_* so I can say that I have already planned my weekend that morning,ehehe!

_*but then while I was dividing the topics later part of the afternoon, my Mom asked whether I would want to go with them shopping!

_*of course I agreed with eyes glowing! Who’d not want to go shopping!ehehe!
_*in short my plans for that day didn’t materialize.ugh!

_*nonetheless I was satisfied cause I was able to buy, 2 tops one green and the other fuchsia pink * extremes huh?!can you believe it?! I was finally able to put to action my realization of wearing something which im not that used in wearing. yipee!*

_*When I set foot out of kamiseta, I instantly recognized the soaring tune,, it was the piano version of 214!eheheh! nothing much,, it just reminds me of someone!:)

_* oh! I was also able to buy 3 pairs of shoes!ehehehe! two of which were sandals with ankle straps*my dream!weehh!* and the other one was a pair of school shoes for the next sem.. knowing my mom, she’s the so advanced type of person!hehe!:)

_*we got home at around 7p.m. oh and by the way! I was with bianx and mama while shopping! Probably you’re thinking how was I able to shop with my lil’ sis with us?! Simple! We left her in a playhouse where she played for approximately 3 hours!:)

_* Happy Birthday John Emmanoel *CHUA* Moran!ehehehe!:)

Sunday,March 5

_* if there’s a word more evocative of the word boring and boredom?I’d prefer to use that, but for now, this day could be equated to the phrase OVERLY BORING!!

_*this day was the super boring day! Cause I never left the house argh! * and I was really expecting,, after that shopping spree yesterday!wahahah! my mom would probably have gone amok if I’d request to go out again!nyahahaha!*

_* I spent the day reading the history book,, which I found so hard to finish! I don’t know what’s happening but I spent almost 5 hours reading that same chapter.. I wasn’t exaggerating!! Its true.. maybe because I was reading it part by part only and after each one I’d then I engage in doing something else!

_*I was cramming when I saw the clock struck 6 in the evening, cause I’ve planned that by that time I should be updating my blog,, then after an hour or so of being online I’d start reviewing for the quiz in math and then re-read my history book again!

_* but then it was all a mess,.. I wasn’t able to put my plan to action,, I spent almost 4 hours online and I was just able to accomplish two not-so-long entries *well that’s rating on my opinion!* instead of the planned 3.

_* after logging out of the net I proceeded in scanning my statistics book,, but sadly though my mind wasn’t able to grasp any thought from it! I really suck at it! I don’t know if I was the one with problems, or the book, of the professor herself?! Please! Somebody help me understand statistics?!?! Will someone out there be kind enough?!

_* the assignment was mind draining! Waaahh! It seems like my mind was sucked up by my forcibly grasping of thoughts as I was scanning. Why was it so hard to think of what form of hypothesis to use?!was it just me or was my classmates also facing the same dilemma as I am?? *I hope so, I don’t want to be considered a deviant!*

_*Just as planned I was bale to re-read the history book while talking to bestfriend..

I think this is much better..
… that we don’t have any form of commitment,, other than being the best of friends in the whole wide universe!ehehehe *do I sound like a kid?* just as what I told you im more than glad that you haven’t changed even a bit in spite of all the pain that I caused you..

I’ve already told you bout my contract with myself,,and I believe there’s no need for me to pill it out to everyone who’s been reading my blog.. but this I say to you..

If ever that time comes and you’re still there.. then maybe.. just maybe,.. it was really meant for us!:)

No fret,, you know me I know how to hold on to promises.. and this one was above all I intend to keep the most! Thank you for the understanding..and the love.. :)

*structured mode*