you dont have to tell it to my face!!

"if truth hurts, what more the lies.."-Kath Pascual from her speech bout the types of liars
we always connote the lies as more or less unimportant compared to the factual occurences, that lies are to be disregarded since it was just mere 'lies' why pay attention if it didnt really happened? its not supposed to affect you cause you know within yourself that its not the truth..

but looking at it at a distinct perspective than the usual.. actually its not the lie which causes us to feel hurt.. its the mere act of doing it!

imagine a person so close to you and you thought that all this time he was the nice one.. then suddenly all the lies are starting to unravel before your eyes... he's not what you thought he is! he LIED!

he lied of the real person behind him, he lied and made you believe that he can offer you a good friendship, he lied of being true to himself, he lied.. and above all he deliberately did it!

he wasn't on a "no choice" scenario wherein his last stake for survival was to lie to you.. but he was rather conscious with all the utterances and projections he made towards you..

how would you feel? wasn't that more painful? finding out that all that's been and was *if there is*was just a lie..??

Indeed the act itself is painful,contributing to the hurt next was the lie itself.. but the reality that a person became inconsiderate enough of your emotions and reactions on his lie was the explanation behind it.. :(

sad... but true..

do you want to be persuaded?
then John would be the first person that I would refer you to..ehehe! he explained their groups' perception regarding kumare-kumoadre system in the philippines.. Iand I can tell that the whole class enjoyed his explanatioN!

I dont know but its really inevitable to listen to him..haha!imagine a huge guy standing on your front with this gigantic husky voice filled with persuasion..

he was able to tackle their report well..I dont know why does he seem so confident each time he faces our class! and Im starting to wonder where was he getting all that confidence..??!

just what i told him.. I really like his personality,., his humor, his santa claus like physique, his glowing aura and most especially his sensibilty! I think he's really intelligent..

I remember one day when I was on my way home with anne when we accidentally bumped on him and he decided to join us.. we repeteadly and unanimously told him that he can make it to the DL.. but then he would only answer us that he cant due to his ectra curricular AA activity.. to motivate him I cited some of his co-members who I know are also DL's despite being active on the org.. and he just gave us a giggle!

To John: I hope realize that your potentials shouldn't only focus on the AA thingy.. I know that you have more to flaunt to everyone else other than your acting.. I hope you'd have sometime to think about it.. :)

"dont rush into things"
this was said to be the nature of the mañana habit of the Filipinos.. for they believed that goals are to be achived gradually.. or in accordance to the spatial time willed by the creator..

well I really have to agree with it.. for I also believe that things that came in your life easily would also step out of it with you even noticing it approaching the exit..

being a bit of goal oriented person i know that thing are to be planned so as to achieve a result that would satisfy your needs.. but what if you settled on fast forwarding stuffs? will it make a difference??

I mean what if you suddenly realized that you ,just can't wait sitting at the corner for results to come near you.. you have to move! you have to act!

that's tha standard right? as to what the cliche goes.. "nasa Diyos ang awa nasa tao ang gawa.." then why are they saying that we have to wait?

now I remember the mañana habit wasn't good at all.. yep you have to wait but of course you have to act then wait for the outcome of you act.. that's where the waiting should properly be applied!


all in one day!
I was quite happy and more sad this day..

happy because I was able to..
-recite at the Philo class..yehey!and I wasn't called I volunteered!that's something to be proud about ayt?ehhehe!
-good discussion in the theo class.. the first three groups of the Filipino values already presented to the class their collaborative perception regarding the Filipino values assigned to each group.. the topics were.. bayanihan, mañana habit and kumare kumpadre system..

these are the Filipino societal characteristics that has long been abused by most Filipinos, thus devaluing its real essence that's why it is formed..

-I learned a lot from the speeches of my classmate, fro the typoes of liars, to the types of anger, to the effect of stress on a child inside the womb, to the production side of the theatre, to stuttering!and also dejavu!:)

more sad.. :(
-im not really sad Im just annoyed by what happened in our Bio class yesterday.. Imagine Sir Olivar almost 'humiliated' well Im kinda exaggerating here! when he announced to the class that I was late last jan. 5 together with my friends! the point is.. I am fully aware that I am late that day.. but why does he have to flaunt it to the class? I mean he skipped the names of my friends.. why does he have to connect my being late with them?argh.. it really ruinded my day!

-same scenario.. BIO class.. he called me for the second time for a recitation.. *what?!* I was really shocked and I can tell that I feel like ranting in front of the class.. but of course that's too much of a tantrum ayt?!

I dont know what was his goal for calling me again.. since the reporters of the digestive system were not able to report due to the inavailabilty of the laptop.. why does he have to call me? I am certain that I was well.. somehow able to answer his question the last time he called me.. why me again??!grrr..

I looked ridiculous while he was asking his questions!grr.. I just hate that moment.. if only I wasn't distracted by his earlier act of humiliating me.. I know I could have answered his questions correctly hmpp.. and besides I wasn't one of the reporters.. he said he would ask the reporters.. why me??!!grrr!!!

pe escapade!
the fact that we never had a game kinda saddened me also for I was starting to love my pe.. I hardly noticed that there are only 2 meeting left after the one yesterday.. huhuhuhu! too bad for the ponkan babes..

Mam De Torres told us last week that she was to meet us at the grandstand because there was a program in commemoration of the IPEA week..we were all excited about it thinking that it would be fun.. but when she told us that we still have to meet her in pe unifrom! a lot if not most of sighed dissatisfactorilu..

when we got there she told us to go inside the gym to watch a game.. and you won't believe what the game was?! my most hated game.. BASKETBALL!!grr.. I dont know why I hate.. well I dont really hate it,.. I just dont enjoy watching it on TV what more in person right?!

and since I was so bothered by the quiz and the journ article I know it would only be more of a reason for me not to appreciate it!

but surprisingly.. it turned out differently.. I ENJOYED THE GAME!hahahahaah! right guys?! I was one of the girls who were screaming their hearts out when one of the players were able to score.. and I shouldn't forget that I was also one of the girls whod did some crazy act.. which I prefer not to mention here!eheheh!

all stressed out..
I got home at around 7.. and I immediately rushed to the table to eat so that I can start with my journa article which I am so sure that would eat up a lot of my time..

but then i decided to change plans when i first finished reading the 2 chapters in history.. i was only left with a few more pages since I started reading at school..heheh! good work for me!

and after reading I got my laptop and started typing the data given to us by sir Esgui.. I have chosen to type down all the data first so that I wont have a hard time rearranging it according to the style I wanted it to appear.. and also since I only needed to add some more background regarding the tragedy.. I could easily insert it within the data itself!

whew!it was really mind draining! I was aable to finish at around 11 and went downsatirs to have a shower and to transfer my work on the other pc for printing! good thing I have my own pc.. where I can work wherever I want at any part of the house where I feel like.. hihihi! and I think my pc was kinda inspiring me cause I can only come up with a somehow good*according to my standards* article though rushed through that! thanks dad.. you're really the best!:)

I already planned that after my article I would already go to bed.. but then my workaholic side struck again.. I was left with no choice but to suffice it.. I read the two chapters in history again.. I was so tired but I just can't stop!I just settled to stop after I finished my hot chocolate..when I looked at the clock it was 1 in the morning.. my dad even went downstairs to tell me that i should be heading to bed cause I have classes early in the morning..
hmm.. now I was feeling kinda woozy due to lack of adequate sleep:(

*stressed mode*