shocked..

wooooowwww.. i really can't describe what im feeling right now, mixed emotions!
happy *just a bit*,

frustrated *as in sobra*,

shocked *to the highest level*,

hurt *duh?? kailangan pa bang imemoririze yan!* ,

jealous *oo kahit wla akong karapatan*,

mad *konti lang don sa nagfflirt sa knya*,

in love *oo naman kahit na ganon lahat ng nalaman ko!*

this is how the story goes regarding these mixed emotions.. today's a monday of course another week before the christmas vacation, as usual im on a good mood bcoz im about to see him! *the guy that brightens up my day!=)* when we're about to go home i was a bit shocked that he approached me to borrow my cellphone, if he can miss call someone! of corse its ok *its my moment to show him that im approachable*, eventhough Im aware that he was about to text a girl *im not a gossip mongrel, that's what my instincts tell me!* ang hnd ko lang magets ay bakit nanghihiram na nga sya ng phone sa isa kong calssmate ay hiniram nya pa rin ung sken* hnd ako nagdadamot ah, curious lang!* then un nagmiscol na nga cya,, tpos maya maya ay nagpaalam ng 'mau,ok lang bang patext?!' *with matching smile and tantalizing eyes pa un ha, para bang alam nyang hnd naman ako makakatanggi eh,, cyempre sya pa! hheeellllooo???* eh d cyempre super pademure sagot ako ng 'sige ok lang!' ano ba yan d man lang napansin ang pagpapacute ko!!*ggrrrr* then he handed over the phone after he composed a message tpos sbi nya "antay ko lang po kung magrereply ung tinext ko ah!" hhaaaayyy.. cyempre ako naman ang curious cat ay tinignan ko ung sent items ng phone ko pra malaman kung cno ung tinext nya *success nandon pa* at ang nakalagay "grapes anong oras ang uwi mo, sunduin kita!" shhuuccckkksss.. pra bang feeling ko nung nabsa ko un eh bigalang kumidlat sa background ko,,parang sa mga cartoons! ang daming tanong agad ang naisip ko gaya ng cno si grapes? bakit nya susunduin?, ano nya si grapes?, gf nya ba un?, iba ba un sa don sa girl sa dati nyang tinetext? as in super dami pa. Para bang gusto kong sumabog nung time na n, ang naisip ko na lang na solusyon eh lapitan si jenny at ipabasa sa kanya ung message na un *at that moment somehow i was relieved* at cyempre pa ang reaction ni jenny “iba yan don sa princess? Eh ano na ang nangyari skanila?” as much as I wanna answer those questions, I can’t bcoz I myself is thinking about the same questions. When we’re about to go home while he’s on the door I teased and ask him”wla d kana mahal non?!” sby tanong kung cno ba ung tinext nya kung gf nya ba or nililigawan? Ang sabi nya hnd bestfriend lang daw nya un! *grabe at that moment I wanna rejoice and party!!ehehe* pero cyempre d ko naman pwedeng phalata db so I smiled and said “oohh,, I see!”

after that moment ay umalis na kmi ng mga friends ko pra kumain kasi nga ittreat kmi nung friend kong kakabday lang kahapon. While eating we all talked abou anything and everything under the sun, until one asked “what’s the issue bet gurlaloo and the prince charming?” I know about some of their answers like hugging gurlash during the welcome party bcoz she was drunk and that gurlaloo cried bcoz of that.. but what hit me is the issue that it was also the same night when he confessed his feelings for gurlash and that their friends thought that they kissed each other bcoz their face was so close. One said that ‘everyone thought that prince charming took advantage of gurlash and that gurlash also is ACTING really drunk’ another said ‘I think if gurlash doesn’t have a boyfriend at that time, charming would really have a big chance with her!’

I thought the shocking moments of that day was over with the text message but I was wrong, what I found out is way too far! While I was listening to their conversation I was pulling jenny’s skirt under the table, just to give her a sign that I couldn’t take what im hearing! Oh, well I have thought its good that I was able to know about those things bcoz its better than being naïve. When I was about to go home with shiela and tha others I kept on asking her about those things,then she asked me ‘kinaya mo ba ung mga nalaman mo? Anong reaction mo?’ I told her that I was shocked but im ok! Hhhhuuuuhhhh!! Why does it have to be that way!! till Next time..